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     Okay so I don't really ever talk to my mom about boys because I don't know, I just think it's kind of weird. She's basically my best friend but I never really have talked to her much about them. Today a lot was going through my mind about two particular guys I've had in my life. I thought I'd vent to her about what I was feeling, & she told me something that kind of surprised me. Let's get to know these two guys first.

     First Guy was literally my dream guy & I mesmorized him , like you all don't even know lol but the point is I realized that yes we did know a lot about each other but then...we didn't. I'm a freaking paradox (I know, tell me about it) Before you get all confused let me tell you about the other guy so you know what I'm trying to say.

    Other Guy- I had about two whole years to actually get to know the kid. He knows that I wanted to be a dolphin trainer at Sea World. I know something that literally broke his heart in the past. He held me when I cried over a situation that was completely stupid. I know what he orders on his pizza. He broke my door every time he came to my house. I know his little family. He knows mine. We have big dreams that are not the most realistic, but we'll try until we can't anymore. He knows how to calm me down when I'm nervous. I was there to piece him back together after his first heartbreak. We flew kites when the wind factor outside was 0. He translated a movie for me in another language and we both cried.

    That was my best friend, without any benefits at all. Physically is what I mean, and I know that sounds bad but with the First Guy, obviously things happened because we were  boyfriend and girlfriend. Of course I could name many things about me and First Guy, that was my first love, but I don't think we ever really knew each other. That's what I was talking to my mom about and she listened carefully. She then replied with,"Yes because you actually got to know Other Guy, but when you date someone, most of the time you don't see their faults & if you do see them, you overlook them." Honestly, I did look past the faults of First Guy just because I cared so much for him. I know that's not an excuse because once he saw little faults in me, he left. I just feel like I know so much more about Other Guy because of the friendship we had & I want that back more than anything.